It's official. Tomorrow is June 1 and I start my 30 Days Better challenge. June is "workout" month which means that 5 days a week I have to work out for at least 20 min and the 2 days I don't work out I have to stretch for 20 minutes (full dance cycle stretching I used to do in all my dance classes)...it may be more like 10 min, but it's still a full cycle.
I've been reflecting today. It's amazing how much the little Devil of doubt creeps into your brain before you begin something. If this had only been half of a thought, I bet he would have sat there saying things only half-heartedly, knowing I wasn't really committed. Now, all day, he stood up shouting "Why are you doing this?" "You know you give up on everything eventually" "You work out already. Why do you need a 'plan' to do that?" "12 months? Really? You're going to do this for 12 months?..." and so on and so on. It was exhausting actually. And you know the even stranger part? It didn't sound like my voice I was combatting. It was a full on different person. If you have read Outwitting the Devil you may know what I'm talking about.
I get the voice a lot when it comes to my business and working to convince myself of the things I have to do to make it work. Part of that is because it requires me to seek out clients. However, because this project is mainly 'just me' and I can do it whenever and without the need or reliance of anyone else, I half assumed the voice wouldn't make his presence known.
*sigh* Not quite. He was very much present. In fact, the fact that he showed up without fail and almost 'on the clock' actually made me laugh. It's amazing how what you learn from one area of your life can prepare you for another.
But seriously, tomorrow we're really starting, and I'm only kind of, sort of, ok maybe a little more than 'a little' nervous. Twelve months requires stamina. So here's to taking one foot over the starting line. "Workout" here we come.
I'll be sure to keep you posted.
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