Sex Day 17 - Tired

Not necessarily physically tired.  Although, I guess when you lounge around the house all day, on your 'day off', it could cause you to be lazier and more tired than normal. But no. It's not that kind of tired.  I mean more tired-bored.  It's the kind of tired where you yawn because your brain is unenthused; the kind where you check your watch a few times more than you should; the kind where you start day-dreaming something more exciting then the reality currently sitting right before your eyes.

Yes, that kind of tired.  And that's how I felt during sex today.  Why?  Who the hell knows.  It's not like one of us wasn't having a good time.  ...I think.  He made some noise and it ended well.  For him. So I think it was good.  But me?  I was so checked-out the whole time it felt more like a chore.

And honestly?  That terrified me. I'm not that person!  I love sex!  Ever since I discovered it in my teens I've loved it.  And I was never.  ever.  EVER tired of it.  Ever.  So I laid there, half-heartedly participating, day-dreaming something else.  The worst part? It wasn't even like another sex fantasy.  It was like "hmm, I still have to shower later and make dinner. Oh, I probably need to write that email.  Could I give myself a pedicure later?  Ugh, is he not done yet?"

EEEEEEW!  Who is this person?  I was so stunned and put-off by the whole thing I literally took a shower after sex and had a "talking to" with myself while I stood there, motionless, letting the very warm water pound down from the shower head.  Is this what happens when you have 'too much sex'? Is that a thing? Too much?  And then I thought, "Is this how porn stars feel?  They don't feel the sex they just feel the work?"  You know, I never really thought of that before, although most likely that is simply due to the fact that if and when I do ever watch porn it's because I am or want to be super horny, not because I'm doing social science and psychological research.

So that was it.  My half stunned/half disgusted self decided that I am waaaaaaay too young for this kind of reaction to sex.  Next time it will have to be better.